i just need to write about this. n sense stephanie aint here to listen .

aerosmith-i dont wanna miss a thing fits me perfect right now.
but im not good enough. i no it. thats why he dont want me .
why the hell would i mess up something that i have been wanting forever. im so gross.im sitting here wishing i was still with him . adam dont even wanna try. i wanna be in love ....
cuz even when i dream of him the sweetest dream will never do <3 i dont wanna miss a thing. aww i wanna cry.but how can i cry over something im so happy about and have been wanting for like 5 or 6 months.

id do anything to have him at this point. hes all im thinkin about and i love the feeling of maybe ill be with him sometime. im not patient. i want him now . why cant javiar get over me so i can be with adam </3 im not happy and he wont see that .i wanna be close to someone. someone i can hang out with without being nervous. or someone i can bring home and just bebest friends with. Hes everything i want at this point. im drunk thats why im even tellin this story. </3

Happy Birthday Stephanie

staying at stephanies tonight, mall+haviar+chev+birthday blunt. hmm
:D

so me and javiar have been, talking. and i have been thinking i want a gf, or a bf. but i cant see me and him going out. he wants too but i dont really...plus when levi comes down hes bringing his friend and im staying the night with him and levi and stephanie, hes black, so it will be new lol.
umm school has been boring, i have a history project due in like 3 weeks that has to be 10 min long and i have to do it in front of the class, and i havent even started lol.. pretty crappy. i went home early yesterday cuz i couldnt stay awake. and we were supposed to have practice but noone showed up.. andthen i went to stephanies after school and wrestled with her cousins, they are gay. and we took so really funny pictures, really gay. :D

im going * love *